Living with Regret

 I Live every day with regret.  The regret is not being with my Mom on her last days.  The last time I saw her blue blue eyes was at the dr. office. I had an appt. and I guess she did to.  She sat in her wheel chair and I sat on the other side of the room,not looking at her. I would sneak a peek every once in a while and I would see her looking at me with sad eyes.  That is the last time I saw those blue eyes. It hurts me every day knowing that my Mother left this earth and I did not say I LOVE YOU MOM! I am so ashamed of myself for letting stupid things get in between my love for her.  I am writeing this so other people don't do the most unforgiveable in your own heart and mind. Because I live every day with a broken heart for my Mom. You had a hard life, and in your days of your death they also where hard.  I am so SORRY Mom I Love yOu with all my broken heart for you. Because I know you Loved me with all your heart.  You use to say I was your little Queen that is how I got my name Marqueen.  Love You!

To Much Work for Old Folks!

 main house master bedroom

main house dining room or another living room

barn house living room

main house kitchen

main house living room

Well, the two houses are almost finished.  Ricky has a little bit to do in the kitchen of the barn house.  It was a long hard road for all of us that helped on the houses to get them ready to sale. Now it is time to advertise and try to get it sold without going through a realtor. It is not going to be easy the hole project has not been easy, so if we can just hold on till we can get it sold.  It just has been so much stress and money. Here are a couple of pictures of the house like I said it has not been easy not even getting good pictures of the rooms. It all came out so clean looking like a new house.  Thanks to all the hard work from all of us. The guys let the girls figure out the color of the walls and light fixtures like smart men they  just went along with it.  Angie and I went rounds a few times on the color of the walls but we met in the middle not to dark and not white.  And Nicole all the assignments we gave her she made straight A's she did such awesome job on painting the stairs and cleaning she did a great job!  And Ricky EVERYTHING he does comes out Great! I don't know where he got all his smarts because he knows how to do everything! What a Great Son in law we have!   And of course my smart and hard working husband he was up at 5:00 in the morning over at the houses working every day for the last two months. He has been out in the sun so much he is dark dark. He has and apt. for the dermatologist on the 22 of this month that Dr. is going to say well you have not listened to me about staying out of the sun or using sun screen I can see that.  But he sure looks good (Roy). And Chad him and Ricky did a great job tearing down the old laundry room and hauling it off.  Yes Chad the barn house and main house looks GREAT he pressure washed it and the wood and mildew is all gone!  And me Don't Ask me to FLIP another house!  I have had enough paint on me and sweat I should have lost a ton of weight but oh NO I don't loose anything.  Well, we will be GLAD when this night mare is over and GONE!